Matthew 5:8 ponderings

I have been wondering, thinking, musing, over Matthew 5:8 " Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God."   
 There is nothing about me that is pure.  I am made from dust (definitely not clean) and I will return to dust. 
The only purity I can lay claim to is that which Christ gives to me.  My daily, hourly, moment by moment washing of forgiveness.  Making me white as snow.  I have nothing pure to offer.  All that is of any worth is already from Christ.  He is the gift giver.  And what I might offer has been given by The Gift Giver, himself.
How selfish am I when I take what He gives and fail to give thanks? Obsessed with lies that say I am deserving.  I deserve nothing.  What I do deserve He does not give.  The pure in heart will see God.  I see the God of grace.  My heart is not pure, yet He is remaking me.  I see His grace.

"I can dare to give thanks in everything, because I can trust God for everything."-anne voskamp

"I can dare to give thanks in everything, because I can trust God for everything." -anne voskamp

When this statement hit my ears it grabbed my mind. It challenged my heart.  I continued to repeat the word "everything".  This long, ten letter word is the hinge point in my belief.  Simply, do I trust God for everything?
Ug!  I really detest these hard questions.  The ones that ask me to be brutally honest and more than likely I don't really want to know the answer to.  (You know the ones I mean)  When I turn this statement around I see how reliant giving thanks is on the trusting.  I trust, therefore, even in the hard I give thanks.  I love the word "dare".  It is a dare, a risk....Yet God risked everything on me...I want to risk everything, trust for everything, give thanks for everything.

Season of Humility

It seems like a long time since I have sat here reflecting.  My thoughts are simple.  My mind seems to swim at times with all that is happening and all that needs to happen.  Is this what I have reduced my days to?  Apparently.  UG!  This reality is ugly.  I am keenly aware of my "self" focus.
This season is filled with Humility.  The humility of our Lord coming from the heavenly realm to this dust trodden place.  The humility of Mary and Joseph's obedience.  The humility of those that came to a stable to worship amongst the animals.  I lack humility when I hurry through my day checking off my list, focused only on my agenda.  How many times can I use "me, my, and I"? 
Recently my father asked me "how concerned are you about God's Glory?"  Is this the key to humility?  Is God's Glory  more important than my own, my success, my accomplishments, my checks on the list of life? 
This is a question that I quickly say YES to, but am I only fooling myself?  God is not fooled by my easy answers.  May I learn to walk humbly with my God.