Waiting...Our story gets complicated and God is in the midst. I am waiting. Waiting on God. Yet is God waiting on me? That is probably more accurate. My first thought is NOT that there might need to be a change in me; an adjustment of my heart, a tweek of my attitude, or a rearrangement of my priorities. No my first thought is that I must be waiting on God. God is not ready, yet. This is my thought.
However, in truth I am the one not ready. I can't handle the job yet. I can"t manage the situation. I am not ready for the news. I need to be more Christ-like. Waiting...Waiting for God to change me. Thankful that God does not leave me the same. Waiting.
Tuesday, April 10, 2012
Wednesday, February 29, 2012
Above and Beyond
Does God go above and beyond in my life? in yours? If not, why? Ephesians 3:20 tells me that he is able to do more than I can imagine according to his power that is at work within me. That power is the Holy Spirit. Do I recognize the power? Am I in touch with the power? Do I even grasp the power? I am not sure I do. Empty myself so I can be filled with "the power". So, I think the question I really have is how do I become empty? If God is going to go above and beyond the imaginable then I must loosen my grasp. I hold onto what can be imagined. My feet are stuck on this earth bound by the limits of my humanity. God can do so much more....empty myself so His power can go beyond in me. Let loose of my plans, dreams, intentions and allow God to do the immeasurable. Uncurl my fingers from around how I think life should happen.
Letting go is scary. Emptying is unnerving. Believing is hard. I mean true believing, not just easy words that are said. True believing, being empty, and letting God go above and beyond starts out hard, moves to unnerving and becomes amazing!
I don't know if God will, but I know He can!
Letting go is scary. Emptying is unnerving. Believing is hard. I mean true believing, not just easy words that are said. True believing, being empty, and letting God go above and beyond starts out hard, moves to unnerving and becomes amazing!
I don't know if God will, but I know He can!
Monday, February 6, 2012
fragile
This week it has become evident to me that I am frail. I am a fragile person. Not just me, but humanity. We are frail. We are like dust in the wind. I work so hard at "handling" life. I work hard at being a worthy daughter of the King. I work hard at being a good wife and mother. And my hard work has shown me my frailty. To be honest, I am a " pull me up by the boot straps" kind of gal. One of the boot straps broke and revealed how very broken I am. But what God shows me in my frailty, is I can allow Him to be strong. He whispered to me, "This is how I made you. FRAGILE. in need. Let me be all to you." My spirit let out a long sigh. A sigh of relinquishing, a sigh of weariness, a sigh of relief. My God tenderly handles my frailty and I am so filled with gratitude. (sigh)
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
remember
It is so easy to become discouraged, grumbling, whining even. When life looks nothing like I want or takes to long. I confess I struggle at worship and excel in whining.
God spoke to His children telling them they must remember. He gave them specific tasks so that they would remember. Remember who He is and what He had done for them. I am so like them...forgetful. I need to remember. Remember God's faithfulness. Remember who He is to me and how He has blessed me. I have found it is much easier to worship when I remember. Yet, remembering is an exercise of my will. I must be intentional. Intentionally turning my focus to remembering. I remember His saving, loving, embracing, caring, protecting, listening, justice, mercy, grace through the years of my life. May I never forget. He is God. The God of Abraham, Isaac, Jacob,and......me.
God spoke to His children telling them they must remember. He gave them specific tasks so that they would remember. Remember who He is and what He had done for them. I am so like them...forgetful. I need to remember. Remember God's faithfulness. Remember who He is to me and how He has blessed me. I have found it is much easier to worship when I remember. Yet, remembering is an exercise of my will. I must be intentional. Intentionally turning my focus to remembering. I remember His saving, loving, embracing, caring, protecting, listening, justice, mercy, grace through the years of my life. May I never forget. He is God. The God of Abraham, Isaac, Jacob,and......me.
Saturday, December 17, 2011
Matthew 5:8 ponderings
I have been wondering, thinking, musing, over Matthew 5:8 " Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God."
There is nothing about me that is pure. I am made from dust (definitely not clean) and I will return to dust.
The only purity I can lay claim to is that which Christ gives to me. My daily, hourly, moment by moment washing of forgiveness. Making me white as snow. I have nothing pure to offer. All that is of any worth is already from Christ. He is the gift giver. And what I might offer has been given by The Gift Giver, himself.
How selfish am I when I take what He gives and fail to give thanks? Obsessed with lies that say I am deserving. I deserve nothing. What I do deserve He does not give. The pure in heart will see God. I see the God of grace. My heart is not pure, yet He is remaking me. I see His grace.
There is nothing about me that is pure. I am made from dust (definitely not clean) and I will return to dust.
The only purity I can lay claim to is that which Christ gives to me. My daily, hourly, moment by moment washing of forgiveness. Making me white as snow. I have nothing pure to offer. All that is of any worth is already from Christ. He is the gift giver. And what I might offer has been given by The Gift Giver, himself.
How selfish am I when I take what He gives and fail to give thanks? Obsessed with lies that say I am deserving. I deserve nothing. What I do deserve He does not give. The pure in heart will see God. I see the God of grace. My heart is not pure, yet He is remaking me. I see His grace.
Thursday, December 15, 2011
"I can dare to give thanks in everything, because I can trust God for everything."-anne voskamp
"I can dare to give thanks in everything, because I can trust God for everything." -anne voskamp
When this statement hit my ears it grabbed my mind. It challenged my heart. I continued to repeat the word "everything". This long, ten letter word is the hinge point in my belief. Simply, do I trust God for everything?
Ug! I really detest these hard questions. The ones that ask me to be brutally honest and more than likely I don't really want to know the answer to. (You know the ones I mean) When I turn this statement around I see how reliant giving thanks is on the trusting. I trust, therefore, even in the hard I give thanks. I love the word "dare". It is a dare, a risk....Yet God risked everything on me...I want to risk everything, trust for everything, give thanks for everything.
When this statement hit my ears it grabbed my mind. It challenged my heart. I continued to repeat the word "everything". This long, ten letter word is the hinge point in my belief. Simply, do I trust God for everything?
Ug! I really detest these hard questions. The ones that ask me to be brutally honest and more than likely I don't really want to know the answer to. (You know the ones I mean) When I turn this statement around I see how reliant giving thanks is on the trusting. I trust, therefore, even in the hard I give thanks. I love the word "dare". It is a dare, a risk....Yet God risked everything on me...I want to risk everything, trust for everything, give thanks for everything.
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
Season of Humility
It seems like a long time since I have sat here reflecting. My thoughts are simple. My mind seems to swim at times with all that is happening and all that needs to happen. Is this what I have reduced my days to? Apparently. UG! This reality is ugly. I am keenly aware of my "self" focus.
This season is filled with Humility. The humility of our Lord coming from the heavenly realm to this dust trodden place. The humility of Mary and Joseph's obedience. The humility of those that came to a stable to worship amongst the animals. I lack humility when I hurry through my day checking off my list, focused only on my agenda. How many times can I use "me, my, and I"?
Recently my father asked me "how concerned are you about God's Glory?" Is this the key to humility? Is God's Glory more important than my own, my success, my accomplishments, my checks on the list of life?
This is a question that I quickly say YES to, but am I only fooling myself? God is not fooled by my easy answers. May I learn to walk humbly with my God.
This season is filled with Humility. The humility of our Lord coming from the heavenly realm to this dust trodden place. The humility of Mary and Joseph's obedience. The humility of those that came to a stable to worship amongst the animals. I lack humility when I hurry through my day checking off my list, focused only on my agenda. How many times can I use "me, my, and I"?
Recently my father asked me "how concerned are you about God's Glory?" Is this the key to humility? Is God's Glory more important than my own, my success, my accomplishments, my checks on the list of life?
This is a question that I quickly say YES to, but am I only fooling myself? God is not fooled by my easy answers. May I learn to walk humbly with my God.
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